A Voyage

For weeks I had been letting God be the captain of my imagination. I was a close first mate and apprentice as he showed me how to dream again. I’m still learning what it looks like, but I know that every bit of it is bigger than I could have first devised. Creativity felt like it was oozing out of me in every quiet moment. I would cherish these times and at first I would ponder ways to capture the creativity and put it to good use. Eventually, that effort became futile because it was more fun to soak in the moment of inspiration and let it flow through me into words or ideas on a piece of paper than it was to try and tame something out of raw unbridled vision.

Something as simple as walking my dog out late at night and through the hazy city night sky allowing the lights above to capture my eye. Causing an ache for the moon to speak to me! Tell me stories of the things she has seen! Even better, put it into a song, Moon! Oh, bright and beautiful Moon!

From this creative awakening I wound up with a handful of small plans. Seedlings, if you will. These plans did not come about by force, but they came purely from dreaming. Plans that have so smoothly and naturally fallen into place that no one BUT the creator of the world himself could be the author of (more on that later) They are tiny seeds for now, but I know God has Oak or Redwood paths for them to grow into.

Voyage Creatives is the name.  A personal business comprised of:
  • Vintage Resale on Etsy – Voyage Vintage
  • Semi Pro Photography – Voyage Photos
  • Graphic Design – Voyage Studios
  • And of course, music and worship…

We will see what sticks. What adventure God breathes upon and which one makes my heart sing. Praise Him.


I've been avoiding you...

I'll be honest, in case you didn't notice....I've been avoiding you. Up till about a month ago life hasn't been dealing me the greatest hand and I've been wallowing in it. You know what I mean? Sometimes you just want to sit around and cry or space out. And you find yourself self-medicating on netflix, eating out and shopping. Accumulating things around you that you don't need. Living the so-called american-freaking-dream. Wasting $25/ month on a gym membership and lacking any real motivation to do anything but make it to work on time and try to be a nominal participant in society. In those conditions I didn't have much to offer the world creatively, so I disappeared. I know that sounds really dramatic and it wasn't always "the pit of despair", but it came in waves....about once a month actually...

You see in February of 2011, Josh and I decided we wanted to take our little family of 2 + one fur-baby to 3 + one fur-baby and try for a real life human baby. We had been married nearly 4 years and by the time the little one came it would be almost 5 good years of career building, financial responsibility, travel, and an unattached relatively free lifestyle...a reasonable amount of "us" time before we took on parenting.

Our approach to getting pregnant was pretty laid back..."We're not NOT trying..." is what we told friends. Somewhere around June it morphed into - "We're ready for kids" and eventually by Fall it was "We are trying for a baby". Fall passed and ushered in a mild Winter that came and went...countless tests with a negative result - one horizontal line and one vertical line.

Throughout all of this time, I really wanted to write about what was happening, but felt somewhat crippled to share. I didn't want to make a big deal out of it and stress myself out, but deep down I was already incredibly stressed and DYING because I wasn't processing what I was going through. (I wrote in my journal a total of 5 times during this time.)

By January, I was in a wasteland. It seemed like my life had no purpose and all I did was sit around waiting...Hubby and I looked at each other and knew we needed vision. We needed new life, baby or no baby, we needed to create something 'cause the path we were on was headed quickly towards destruction.

Both of us prayed.

Both of us came to the same answer. We want God to give us a baby in as much of a natural way as possible...(no in vitro or stimulates at this point). We are still young and have plenty of time for children. Also, we asked God to help us dream again. It had been so long since we even tried and needed the Dreamer of all dreamers to spark our imaginations.

And boy did He...

So much is happening right now! I can't wait to share it with everyone! Stay tuned...


Hey Moon

Hey Moon - would you sing me a song?
A song about the loved one
who pulls me along

Hey Moon -  would you sing me a song?
A song that takes the place of
This space that's left alone

Hey Sky - would you paint me a picture?
of every single journey
I've wandered to get here

Hey Sun - would you dance me a dance?
That tells of love and happiness
And is full of Romance

Hey Sea - would you light up my path?
For a voyage of lovers
and a season of dreams

New things are coming/here. Hopefully announcing more in the days to come!