3.18.2013

Becoming a Mom


I honestly don't know how other mommy bloggers do it. Take care of a newborn while still magically taking pictures with beautiful lighting of their child and simultaneously making home cooked meals every night and blogging 4 times a week.

Today Felix is 9 weeks old and I'm JUST starting to feel like the chaos of mommy hood is balancing out to a dull hum and I'm regaining a bit of my sanity and time to do things. Things like take a walk, shower before noon, grocery shop or do a bit of yoga (42 mins of a 62 min DVD - I put that one in the win pile).

But even in the crazy-exhausted newborn haze when I didn't leave the house, let alone put on a bra or makeup for two weeks, I loved it. Even when I felt a bit like a crazy person sleeping in 45 min stretches till 4:30 PM, not eating unless someone placed food in front of my face because walking down the stairs to the kitchen was too much to muster, and hobbling around with a sore pelvis from pushing out a 10 lbs baby. Even through the 104 degree fever with mastitis and swollen eyes from the tears I wept upon realizing the struggle single moms must overcome. Even in the car when my little mister cries and cries and I'm useless to help him because my hands are on the wheel.

Even among all the exhaustion and chaos I have loved every single minute of becoming a mom. I've loved that this perfect squishy little boy needed me. I've loved how much of his daddy I saw in his face and feet. I've loved that he was a floppy newborn, but was still the big Michael-gene baby I expected. I've loved that he has has such personality from day 1 and smiles gummy grins at me all the time. I've loved discovering things about this little man that only I as his mom could know. I've loved seeing how he calms down when daddy is near and falls fast asleep every time he gets in the crook of daddy's arm.


And even now, as Felix is discovering his hands, feet, and voice I'm BEAMING with pride. I mean, who would have thought that I could be so proud of another person for looking at their own fingers. It's ridiculous.

Even with all the wonder and business of becoming a mom, I'm itching to get back into blogging. This blog has always been a place for me to process what is happening in my life and even perhaps to entertain those who find themselves at withallherheart.blogspot.com. And becoming a mom and balancing who I am as a wife, a friend, a sister, a daughter and child of God is going to take a lot of process.

So I may not be blogging 4 times a week, but I want, nay I NEED, to start writing again and obviously this blog is going to take a shift towards thoughts on Mommyhood for a while. I do hope you will stick around and read.

11 comments:

  1. I just love these photos.
    And you'll get it down. Don't worry.

    And then when you do, something will change. HAHAHAHAHA.
    And then you'll get it down again. ;)

    Be kind to yourself. That's the most important thing. You're doing splendidly.

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    1. Nothing...NOTHING in the world can prepare you for the insanity of having your first baby. I'm thankful to start feeling quasi normal again. I feel like for the next 18 years it's going to constantly be learning and relearning how to get the kid to eat and sleep properly while still maintaining some semblance of my own self. :)

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    2. And then after those 18 years, you'll be calling him in college to make sure he is eating and sleeping properly! ;-)

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  2. Seriously, 4 times a week, dinner on the table? YIKES lol. I have my mom here to help and a pretty easy baby (compared to most) and I'm still like, whaaaa?!, did I put on deodorant today? You're doing so great, your family is so beautiful! I'm so excited to see what amazing moms we have all become in such a short period of time! <3

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    1. I know! Who are these super moms who can blog the week their baby was born?! My vagina hurt too much to think about typing in complete sentences. haha! We will figure it out and I love that we all kinda get to figure it out together!

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  3. Loved being with you all this weekend and I was so proud of you. You are a wonderful mom. Felix is one of the smiley-est babies I have ever met. He is a great little human.

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  4. I love this Katherine!!!! Thank you so much for sharing a piece of your life with us!!

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    1. Thanks for your sweet words and thanks for reading! :)

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  5. Katie- Beautiful! Kate said she got to see you this past week and that Felix is adorable! Think lifetime, not just 18 years. As I am sure your mom has told you, being a mom is forever! And I wouldn't change it for the world!

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    1. Thanks Ann! I'm so excited to be on the journey. Felix already has so much personality!

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